I'm afraid during almost every run I go on.
I avoid the news, but I still hear stories of women getting kidnapped, killed, raped every few months.
I turn around to check that no one is behind me.
I use apps that send my location to my loved ones.
I use apps that set off an alarm and alert people if I stop moving.
I never listen to music.
My running hours are limited to those of daylight, unless I drive to join a group run.
I'm nervous to run on the town trails.
I cross the street to avoid going by men on the sidewalk.
I never share my maps online.
I wonder what it's like to be a male runner.
Do you ever have these worries?
Do you stress when you pass other runners and walkers?
Do you feel paranoid?
Do you run before dawn or after dusk with only worries of meeting wildlife?
What about trails?
Are solo runs carefree and and peaceful?
This is not to say that I don't enjoy a solo run. I run alone quite often...but it's a rare solo run that I don't have one of these fears in my mind at some point. And that's what makes me sad.
Actually, it makes me mad! It's not fair. Why should female runners have to deal with this shit because there are asshole men in the world? (Yes I know not all men are assholes.)
This goes beyond running.
It's a fear that most women learn as they grow up. Don't go anywhere alone. Take a buddy to the bathroom. Always be alert when you're going to your car. Look strong. Have your keys in your fist. Stuff we've all heard.
And it all carries over into running. Except you are alone and you never know what you could happen.
And that pisses me off.
Hi, I'm Jessie!
I live in NH with my husband and our pups. My favorite things are coaching Girls on the Run, eating good food that I didn't have to cook, helping other people work on their health, volunteering for and running races, watching tv, doing yoga, and spending too much time on social media. #Balance